..And life goes on

For all those who weren't part of the rat race (or must I say CAT race), the results were out today. And no surprises there; missed out on those elusive IIM calls by a few marks here and there. Sadly, the closer you get to it, the harder it is to digest the miss; especially when you know that 2 measly mis-calculations will set you back by something like 10 marks and more often than not, that is the difference between a great score and an average one!
And I quite honestly was dreading this day, expecting a long depressing lull in my life, where I suddenly realise that I'm good-for-nothing and a miss in this exam is akin to being a failure and a second-grade citizen in life. But amazingly I seem to have taken it awfully well (and believe me, I think someone has taken over my mind today).
And quite on the contrary, I'm quite filled with indignance. I just don't believe that an exam can define who I become ( though it will define it for those who do clear it!). And suddenly I feel like I just got swept into the much hated (by me) 'mob mentality'. I really don't have a clear idea of what an MBA even entails, so all that I've done is gone by 'tags' and hearsay. Maybe this is my chance to step back, re-evaluate my options, find my passion ( and i'm a great believer of doing what consumes you completely, to the point of obsession) . So this is probably a blessing in disguise!And last but not the least, I'm still a smart person, and so are all those who missed out in this exam, irrespective of what the numbers and rankings say!